Sometimes I am resentful of people who have moms. I'm pretty sure that's normal. But it still doesn't make me feel okay to have those feelings.
When I think about being pregnant and having to go through that without my mom I get even more resentful and even feel envious. It's just not fair. You know what else isn't fair? Not to have a mother-in-law either. It's like a slam in the face twice. "You don't get this! (cruel sounding voice) Oh and guess what? You don't get this either!"
The time is crawling by way too slowly at my job and I really have no desire to work at all.