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Thursday, September 2, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
Cute!
http://www.etsy.com/shop/LovieAndBoo?ref=seller_info
Cute stuff at this etsy site :) My friend posted it on her blog and I thought I'd share!
Cute stuff at this etsy site :) My friend posted it on her blog and I thought I'd share!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Baby Blankets
Baby Boy Blanket #2 |
Baby Boy Blanket #2 |
Baby Girl Blanket #1 |
Baby Girl Blanket #1 |
And both mama's loved the blankets! Machine washable cotton blends too! So that means the babies can now poop and spit up all they want on their new blankies lol! I'm not sure this is my favorite pattern as far as "prettiness" goes, but it sure is simple and nice to have for a "useful" blanket. I think I might try and figure out how to make them bigger so that the mom's can use them longer. Not sure :) Still knitting and working on some fun projects.
New goals? Trying to finish what I already have on my needles, so I don't get so backed up!
Monday, August 2, 2010
how do you say 3?
God is good at humbling me. I still need guidance ... good thing I don't run this universe. OYIE!
part deux
Worst run recorded thus far on my Nike+ .... mentally and physically felt like a giant KNOT. Don't like running at 5pm...also I do NOT think it's ok to have to run BEHIND my antithesis. God please bless that woman....but today was NOT the day to see her.
How am I supposed to be broken and stay broken for God and yet still function ... when I believe I can only function by being my version of whole and complete??? How am I supposed to function when the whole world seems to be showing me how fragmented and behind I really am! I get that those aren't the truth ... in my head ... if you asked me that's the answer I'd give you because it's the "right" one. I just want to live by the truths ... OH Father help me please!!
How am I supposed to be broken and stay broken for God and yet still function ... when I believe I can only function by being my version of whole and complete??? How am I supposed to function when the whole world seems to be showing me how fragmented and behind I really am! I get that those aren't the truth ... in my head ... if you asked me that's the answer I'd give you because it's the "right" one. I just want to live by the truths ... OH Father help me please!!
Performing
I wonder where in my life this idea of needing perform everything perfectly came from. I've been in a state of frustrated awe for a week or so now trying to contemplate why I do this! I realize that my life is a gift from God and I chose to receive the gift of His salvation. It should stand that I would live freely in that gift. To do the best with what I'm given. But when and where have I crossed the line of "doing the best with what I'm given" to "never thinking I'm doing my best." I asked my husband about this and it even seemed to baffle him. He could not explain what seems like such a fine line to walk. How do I become okay with who I am and where I am without losing my drive to be better and seek after the Lord more? When will I stop trying to do "good enough" to get what I want? Because frankly, I will never be good enough for myself and I will most certainly NOT be good enough for everyone around me. I know this and yet it seems I am addicted to chasing down the next compliment...the next "good enough" momentary high. I don't want to just stop chasing down a better me either. Am I also addicted to a better me because I never think I"m good enough? This idea that I can do enough in my life to get the blessings and dreams God has for me ... is ABSURD! And yet I chase it. Thinking I have to work my way. Of course I fully believe in grace and mercy....or do I? Because if I fully believed ... would I really be chasing? I feel tugged and called to by the Holy Spirit inside my soul ... loving me where I'm at. I can feel His call to me ... to just "be ok" with who He made me. But who is that? Because I'm far beyond the person I used to be, so I want ... yearn to be far beyond the person I am currently. Isn't that our life? Isn't that the race we're running? Or is it. What is the race? And am I in the wrong one? Are these even the right questions to be asking?
These thoughts are plaguing me ... because they seem to not have answers and yet I feel glad that I'm dealing with this now...before I'm 30. I suppose I could guess that most don't. Of course then again that's comparing. So I'm trying to make myself feel better by saying "well yes I'm struggling with this path of wrong thinking and living, BUT at least it's now and not later." Again I find myself trapped inside a circular path of a performance based life.
Husband says that he struggles with this ... at work. I tried to isolate where I struggle with this and realized this morning that a new week doesn't signify endless possibilities...it suddenly signifies endless areas I need to "work on." Of course that's not every morning and I can choose NOT to think like that. And I think that's part of it, but this overwhelming need to get up out of bed and be "on" is NOT how I'm supposed to be living my life. To get up in the morning and beg God to help me when I haven't even been awake for 5minutes of the morning. What kind of a life is this!? I know I'm better then this ... or am I? Is that, too, performance based? Something I should be "doing" better? And WHY am I hardwired to this? Are we all?? Or am I truly addicted to trying to do it all alone? This screams lack of faith and trust in God. Then that begs the question why NOT trust the creator of the universe!! I mean if He can knit the world and universe together so well ... why wouldn't He do the same for me and my life.
Is this the reason why I hate the process...the journey? Because to me the journey screams not of progress or grace or mercy but of thousands upon thousands of failings and areas that I should work on to be better at. Wow ... not a life to live and not really something I like to say about myself. It sounds so wrong, so the way I used to think. Knowledge is power right? Now that I 'know' does this mean I will begin to give in and allow God to take over the rest of me? I pray that. I really don't want this to be the rest of my life.
And OH what freedom awaits me! To truly let go and allow God to just pour over me and through me. Is this the breaking apart I asked for? Another moment in my journey where He breaks me even more to mold me into Him. To make my heart and my desires more like His? I want this! And yet ... to reveal these new pains and cracks seem almost too overwhelming and painful. I wish to have the eyes of Christ. To see myself so broken down as a wondrous gift to others around me. Because only broken can I pour out the full love and mercy of Christ onto everyone I meet. I do not want to be in His way...and yet as I run around trying to perform everything 'good enough' without Him I believe I am in the way.
I do know this .. my salvation is secure. There is nothing that can pluck me from hand of Christ. AND nothing more I can do for my salvation. I trust Christ as my savior ... only one way to the Father ... when will the rest of my life follow this?
These thoughts are plaguing me ... because they seem to not have answers and yet I feel glad that I'm dealing with this now...before I'm 30. I suppose I could guess that most don't. Of course then again that's comparing. So I'm trying to make myself feel better by saying "well yes I'm struggling with this path of wrong thinking and living, BUT at least it's now and not later." Again I find myself trapped inside a circular path of a performance based life.
Husband says that he struggles with this ... at work. I tried to isolate where I struggle with this and realized this morning that a new week doesn't signify endless possibilities...it suddenly signifies endless areas I need to "work on." Of course that's not every morning and I can choose NOT to think like that. And I think that's part of it, but this overwhelming need to get up out of bed and be "on" is NOT how I'm supposed to be living my life. To get up in the morning and beg God to help me when I haven't even been awake for 5minutes of the morning. What kind of a life is this!? I know I'm better then this ... or am I? Is that, too, performance based? Something I should be "doing" better? And WHY am I hardwired to this? Are we all?? Or am I truly addicted to trying to do it all alone? This screams lack of faith and trust in God. Then that begs the question why NOT trust the creator of the universe!! I mean if He can knit the world and universe together so well ... why wouldn't He do the same for me and my life.
Is this the reason why I hate the process...the journey? Because to me the journey screams not of progress or grace or mercy but of thousands upon thousands of failings and areas that I should work on to be better at. Wow ... not a life to live and not really something I like to say about myself. It sounds so wrong, so the way I used to think. Knowledge is power right? Now that I 'know' does this mean I will begin to give in and allow God to take over the rest of me? I pray that. I really don't want this to be the rest of my life.
And OH what freedom awaits me! To truly let go and allow God to just pour over me and through me. Is this the breaking apart I asked for? Another moment in my journey where He breaks me even more to mold me into Him. To make my heart and my desires more like His? I want this! And yet ... to reveal these new pains and cracks seem almost too overwhelming and painful. I wish to have the eyes of Christ. To see myself so broken down as a wondrous gift to others around me. Because only broken can I pour out the full love and mercy of Christ onto everyone I meet. I do not want to be in His way...and yet as I run around trying to perform everything 'good enough' without Him I believe I am in the way.
I do know this .. my salvation is secure. There is nothing that can pluck me from hand of Christ. AND nothing more I can do for my salvation. I trust Christ as my savior ... only one way to the Father ... when will the rest of my life follow this?
Monday, June 7, 2010
So what I needed to read :) as always!
A few weeks ago, AdvoCare's President and CEO, Richard Wright, left a message on his Facebook page that, if everyone who read it would do as he suggested, would elevate AdvoCare's phenomenal growth even beyond where it is. The good news is that anyone who is reading this can do exactly what he stated, and that was, "Let's everyone step it up a notch." You see, that's exactly what life and business and progress in life at the individual level is all about "stepping it up a notch," and doing more than we've done and doing more than we're currently doing. Here's an analogy on that subject for you to consider; when the space shuttle is sitting on the launch pad, with seven or eight astronauts inside, and when the countdown reaches "3, 2, 1 - and we have ignition," the main engines ignite with the fierce fury of an exploding volcano. In an instant, the shuttle with all of its main engines, fuel tanks, booster rockets and other major component parts begin functioning in harmony to do one primary thing - to steadily increase in speed up to 17,500 miles per hour in order to overcome the pull of the earth's gravity. If for any reason whatever, the main engines were to fail or lose their full thrust, the effect of gravity would overcome the upward momentum and disaster would follow. And, when finally the shuttle system reaches 17,500 miles per hour in momentum, that speed is sufficient to have placed the shuttle into orbit around earth - usually at an altitude of about 200 miles, or about 1,056,000 feet (the most modern commercial jet usually cruises along at about 550 miles per hour at an altitude of about 38,000 feet). Now, I suggest today that there?s a dramatic comparison between what I've just described regarding the launching of the space shuttle, and the "launching" of our personal life into a new and higher orbit of enjoyment, financial independence, and peace of mind. And, from wherever we may be in life, if we will respond to Richard's appeal to "step it up a notch," we can do just that. For you and I and everyone else, the quality of our existence on this planet is determined not so much by luck, but by the power and the determination of what we choose to do, what we choose to believe, and what we choose to think. What we do and what we think and believe represent our own internal "rocket boosters" that can enable us to overcome the "pull of gravity" represented by all the obstacles, setbacks, failures, disappointments, self-imposed limitations and destructive and limiting habits we've created within ourselves. This "what I choose to do and think" is our own onboard propulsion system (in the form of our dreams, desires and ambition) that, if we push the throttle full forward, can allow us to escape our own internal "pull of gravity" that tends to hold us back and keep us where we are. But some people are reluctant to do that, because by increasing our thrust ? or momentum ? our lives can quirk and shake and vibrate, and all that turbulence can make us nervous and uncomfortable. For many people, they find contentment, safety and security merely by climbing into their shuttle cabin (their job and their circumstances), strapping themselves in, and then they sit there and pretend to be going into space; they play the "make believe" game of what it would be like to hear the engines and feel the power of massive upward momentum. You can pretend, or you can "let the rockets roar" and thrust yourself forward as never before. And finally, once you've made it to orbit at 17,500 miles per hour, by "stepping it up a notch," you can increase your speed to 22,500 miles per hour and fully overcome gravity and go into space to explore all that God has created. - Ron Reynolds
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Mental Food :)
Mental Vitamin - The Wrong Forest
from AdvoCare's Facebook Notes by AdvoCare & Ron Reynolds
A man left his home with a ladder and walked for several miles toward a dense, wooded area where he thought he remembered having built a tree house when he was a young boy. He maneuvered his ladder through the thicket to what he thought was the right tree, and propped the ladder against the tree and climbed to the top. It was then, as he could see more of where he really was, that he discovered that not only was this the wrong tree, but he was in the wrong forest. Something similar happens to lots of people; we don't carry a big ladder all the way to a distant forest only to discover we've gone to the wrong place, but many do wake up one morning, and discover that we've chosen the wrong occupation. That can be a horrifying discovery - to conclude that what we chose to do many years ago hasn't turned out to be as rewarding, as exciting, and as fulfilling as we thought it would be. There was a moment in my life when I felt trapped in a job that simply was not feeding my spirit, and it wasn't enabling me to earn enough to keep up with ever-increasing expenses. There is such a thing as being able to "see the future in advance," and at age thirty-two, with my future moving in upon me. I was weary of being told when I could take a vacation, when I could eat lunch, when to take a break, when I had to arrive at work, when I could go home, when - or if - I would get a raise, and who I was to take orders from. It seemed to me to be a form of enslavement, and I knew it was time to change. On impulse one day, I wrote a letter of resignation and then went home to tell my wife. Good fortune smiled upon me and I found a new position at another company doing very much the same thing, although the pay was much better. I still didn't know what I wanted to do, but I did know what I didn't want to do anymore, and once again luck visited me and I went to a meeting involving a "business opportunity" and after one year, became a full-time distributor. That led me to do what I do today, and my life has surely been blessed. Through this whole process, I was at least smart enough to "follow the still, small voice." I knew what I did not want to do anymore, and I simply kept listening to a subtle, persuasive and whispering voice that seemed to be guiding me to make some crucial decisions. I often wonder about those who keep doing "what they don't want to do" as I had for about a dozen years. If you are one who feels captured by your circumstances as I was, I would offer a reminder; a job is where you work just hard enough to keep getting fired and the boss pays you just enough to keep you from quitting. That is not a way to live, and there are other choices that can lead to better - and sometimes challenging - changes, if you will make some serious choices. Or, you can stay and do what circumstance forces you to do. We all must make our own decisions about what's best for us and for our family, but for me, I have a strong conviction; we can limit our dreams so they conform to the level of our income, or we can find something that can expand our income to the level of our dreams and then commit ourselves to its attainment. We call such an approach "taking more control over the quality of your own life." My conclusion is simple; it's easy for us to find ourselves with the ladder of our life up against what we thought was the correct tree only to find that we're in the wrong forest. And, if you think the pain of change is too difficult, try the pain of not changing.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Oh my!
Out of curiosity I went back to the beginning of my blog. I have a new friend (hi friend!!) who is lurking on my blog and I asked her if she was reading it. This morning she informed me she was reading/skimming the whole thing. Honestly I'm slightly embarrassed. I just went back to see what my blog was about in August of 2005. All I have to say is, OH MY! I have changed A LOT! And what I write about has changed. I think I muse more now on my blog (among other things). It's odd to think that this August will mark 5 years of having a blog. That's a long time.
As I was reading what I had written all those years back I'm struck with the thought that I didn't add much to the world. LOL! Oh well :) nothing I can do about that now.
But seriously though...at 24 I thought I was more mature then it seems I actually was. Are we always less mature then we seem to think we are at the current age we're in?
I am even MORE grateful for the continued friendships and family relationships that I've kept over these years of my life. Thank you for loving me through the junk!
As I was reading what I had written all those years back I'm struck with the thought that I didn't add much to the world. LOL! Oh well :) nothing I can do about that now.
But seriously though...at 24 I thought I was more mature then it seems I actually was. Are we always less mature then we seem to think we are at the current age we're in?
I am even MORE grateful for the continued friendships and family relationships that I've kept over these years of my life. Thank you for loving me through the junk!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Distractions
Why is it so much easier to be distracted then to focus? Is that something we learn at a young age or is it already pre-programed into our DNA? I know I'm not the only person that finds it easier to check my email in the morning then to sit down and read my Bible or even read a book at all. I know my day goes better when I choose better, but I still don't choose better.
Hmm this is starting to sound like that verse in Romans. I don't do what I want to do...I do what I don't want to do...that one.
I suppose this is just one of those struggles all humans go through and will go through for the rest of our lives? Well, I don't like it.
Changing subjects...what I do like? The blue sky in Oregon. SERIOUSLY BLUE! I mean ... seriously. I'm not sure you could make a crayon that wonderful of a color. And against the blue sky rests the best green from the trees. I wish there were more adjectives to describe how it looks when the weather actually stays put for a few days. Everyone's moods lift and even the animals all seem happier. Of course the kids are all louder too. I don't suppose I mind that much if I stop to remember being a kid. I wasn't raised in an apartment either. More and more these days I am thankful for that. Thanks mom & dad!
Also another slightly random thought struck me yesterday that I wanted to write about.
My sister and I were talking about our 'jobs' and how difficult it is to maintain a schedule, how we sometimes feel badly wanting to spend money when we don't make money in the conventional way. That's when the thought popped into my head. My mom and dad (especially dad) worked HARD all through my childhood/early adulthood. My dad STILL works his butt off ALL the time! I'm proud that I have such hard working examples, but I find it odd that both his daughters chose to be self-employed...something he never really taught us. I do remember being told to go to college and get a good education so I can get a good job. I remember being told that having a good job was the only way to make good money. So why did we both decide to be pioneers for our families? Did we see something we didn't like about having to work for "the man" from 9-5 for the rest of our lives? I don't think my dad's work ethic is in question here at all. He did what he had to do and did it well and he still does it with consistent persistence. Even my husband does! His work ethic is like my father's. I don't get it...honestly. I tried for a LONG time to work a normal "corporate" 9-5. I did okay for a while, but I don't fit too well in that box. Although there are times on my journey as a pioneer for my family that I wonder and say "what if." Some days it does seem easier to just go get hired and work and work and work....but how happy would I be?
Yes happiness is fickle and in 2 seconds it can turn on you. But for as much as I watched my parents work as hard as they did I wonder now if they were happy. Did they pursue the dreams they had when they were in college? I think I remember my dad saying something about being a scientist...what happened to that dream? Or was it ever a dream? It breaks my heart that as a child I might have been the reason that necessity over threw dreams. I know we are told we must "grow up" some day, but I'm not sure I'm ok with giving up my desire to positively affect, influence, & change the lives of thousands of people. And not just with a few pills...I'm talking about letting flow the Love and Grace of Christ through my brokenness into those broken around me.
Today I love that I'm a pioneer. The sun is bright and the birds are singing as loud as they can. But there is a tickle in the back of my head. What if my dad had the right idea?
Then again ... what if I don't explore this path? What will I miss if I walk away from it? What will my family miss?
Hmm this is starting to sound like that verse in Romans. I don't do what I want to do...I do what I don't want to do...that one.
I suppose this is just one of those struggles all humans go through and will go through for the rest of our lives? Well, I don't like it.
Changing subjects...what I do like? The blue sky in Oregon. SERIOUSLY BLUE! I mean ... seriously. I'm not sure you could make a crayon that wonderful of a color. And against the blue sky rests the best green from the trees. I wish there were more adjectives to describe how it looks when the weather actually stays put for a few days. Everyone's moods lift and even the animals all seem happier. Of course the kids are all louder too. I don't suppose I mind that much if I stop to remember being a kid. I wasn't raised in an apartment either. More and more these days I am thankful for that. Thanks mom & dad!
Also another slightly random thought struck me yesterday that I wanted to write about.
My sister and I were talking about our 'jobs' and how difficult it is to maintain a schedule, how we sometimes feel badly wanting to spend money when we don't make money in the conventional way. That's when the thought popped into my head. My mom and dad (especially dad) worked HARD all through my childhood/early adulthood. My dad STILL works his butt off ALL the time! I'm proud that I have such hard working examples, but I find it odd that both his daughters chose to be self-employed...something he never really taught us. I do remember being told to go to college and get a good education so I can get a good job. I remember being told that having a good job was the only way to make good money. So why did we both decide to be pioneers for our families? Did we see something we didn't like about having to work for "the man" from 9-5 for the rest of our lives? I don't think my dad's work ethic is in question here at all. He did what he had to do and did it well and he still does it with consistent persistence. Even my husband does! His work ethic is like my father's. I don't get it...honestly. I tried for a LONG time to work a normal "corporate" 9-5. I did okay for a while, but I don't fit too well in that box. Although there are times on my journey as a pioneer for my family that I wonder and say "what if." Some days it does seem easier to just go get hired and work and work and work....but how happy would I be?
Yes happiness is fickle and in 2 seconds it can turn on you. But for as much as I watched my parents work as hard as they did I wonder now if they were happy. Did they pursue the dreams they had when they were in college? I think I remember my dad saying something about being a scientist...what happened to that dream? Or was it ever a dream? It breaks my heart that as a child I might have been the reason that necessity over threw dreams. I know we are told we must "grow up" some day, but I'm not sure I'm ok with giving up my desire to positively affect, influence, & change the lives of thousands of people. And not just with a few pills...I'm talking about letting flow the Love and Grace of Christ through my brokenness into those broken around me.
Today I love that I'm a pioneer. The sun is bright and the birds are singing as loud as they can. But there is a tickle in the back of my head. What if my dad had the right idea?
Then again ... what if I don't explore this path? What will I miss if I walk away from it? What will my family miss?
Friday, May 7, 2010
Devotional for yesterday and today
"Do not search for security in the world you inhabit. You tend to make mental checklists of things you need to do in order to gain control of your life. If only you could check everything off your list, you could relax and be at peace. But the more you work to accomplish that goal, the more things crop up on your list. The harder you try, the more frustrated you become.
There is a better way to find security in this life. Instead of scrutinizing your checklist, focus your attention on My Presence with you. This continual contact with Me will keep you in My Peace. Moreover, I will help you sort out what is important and what is not, what needs to be done now and what does not. Fix your eyes not on what is seen (your circumstances) but on what is unseen (My Presence)."
"If you learn to trust Me - really trust Me - with your whole being, then nothing can seperate you from My Peace. Everything you endure can be put to good use by allowing it to train you in trusting Me. This is how you foil the works of evil, growing in grace through the very adversity that was meant to harm you. Joseph was a prime example of this divine reversal, declaring to his brothers: "You meant evil against me, but God meant it for good."
Do not fear what this day, or any day, may bring your way. Concentrate on trusting me and on doing what needs to be done. Relax in My Sovereignty, remembering that I go before you, as well as with you, into each day. Fear no evil, for I can bring good out of every situation you will ever encounter."
There is a better way to find security in this life. Instead of scrutinizing your checklist, focus your attention on My Presence with you. This continual contact with Me will keep you in My Peace. Moreover, I will help you sort out what is important and what is not, what needs to be done now and what does not. Fix your eyes not on what is seen (your circumstances) but on what is unseen (My Presence)."
"If you learn to trust Me - really trust Me - with your whole being, then nothing can seperate you from My Peace. Everything you endure can be put to good use by allowing it to train you in trusting Me. This is how you foil the works of evil, growing in grace through the very adversity that was meant to harm you. Joseph was a prime example of this divine reversal, declaring to his brothers: "You meant evil against me, but God meant it for good."
Do not fear what this day, or any day, may bring your way. Concentrate on trusting me and on doing what needs to be done. Relax in My Sovereignty, remembering that I go before you, as well as with you, into each day. Fear no evil, for I can bring good out of every situation you will ever encounter."
Friday, April 16, 2010
Who Are You?
" "The chains of habit are generally too small to be felt until they are too strong to be broken." (Johnson) "If we would know who is the most degraded and wretched of human beings, look for a person who has practiced a vice for so long that he curses it and yet clings to it." (Brougham) It's within our power to change ourselves by changing our thoughts; by changing our thoughts we can change our actions, and by changing our actions we change our habits; but in each passing year of our lives, the "rewiring" process becomes increasingly difficult. Don't wait until the burden is so great and your desire so small that your only option is to remain as you are; if we remain as we are, we will then spend our remaining years with what little in the way of good results we have managed to gather around us. Remember, for things to change, we must change; for things to get better, we must get better. Start now!"
Monday, April 12, 2010
Write down your Goals
"What does your personal list of goals look like? What's on it and how do the things you've written down make you feel? If, right now, all of those "wishes" were part of your reality, how would you feel then? Now, no doubt there are many people - even in the world of AdvoCare where we actively promote the process of establishing your goals - there are probably a hundred people who don't have such a list for every one who does. It's one of those mysteries of the mind as to how people can wish their circumstances were better, who pray for them to get better, who have a multitude of deep, emotional reasons for making things better, who devoutly profess to believe that if they "ask they will receive," but still haven't bothered to ask. My best guess is that those who don't have a written list of their goals are taking the position that they know what their goals are in their mind, and that's good enough; well, it isn't good enough. A wish in the mind is little more than an exercise in self-delusion; wishes in the mind are "fantasies," and the chances of attaining such undefined goals are virtually non-existent. I suppose another reason people don't have a "mental roadmap" of what they intend to have, what they intend to become, what they intend to feel, and what they intend accomplish is because they're so busy going to work to earn a living that they've ignored the vastly more important process of designing their life; and, designing your life is just what an architect does; he or she finishes on paper the building he or she is going to build even before the first shovel of dirt is dug up on the lot where the building will be. If you don't really know what you want, let me share a few things that, if they could "get it" and if they would learn to "give it" and then to "live it" would make life far more enjoyable for those who take a serious approach to "making things better." Being completely free of debt - the one freedom that makes all others possible. Becoming a stay at home parent. Not having to drop the children off at a day care center. Having enough money to live in a better place. Being able to spend more quality time with your family. Not having to come home mentally exhausted at the end of each work day. Being able to associate with people who think more positive thoughts. Driving a car that isn't mechanically unsound Having an investment plan that's going to make your future more stabile. I could actually come up with a much longer list, because all of us have an imagination that can provide us with hundreds of goals and wishes, just as we have the blessing of creative powers that could lead us toward the means of achieving those things our imagination presents to us. What the combination of a written goal list, along with our own imagination and creativity, can do to change how we live and how we feel about life and our future is rather incredible, and the barrier so many have learned to live with is that we've forgotten to "ask." And - what can a person who hasn't learned to ask expect to receive? About what they now have, because for things to change, we have to change. Don't be one of those who curse the effect but nourish the cause, and of whom it can be said, "They have not, because they ask not"." - Ron Reynolds
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
This morning's devotional
"Bring Me the sacrifice of thanksgiving. Take nothing for granted, not even the rising of the sun. Before Satan tempted Eve in the Garden of Eden, thankfulness was as natural as breathing. Satan's temptation involved pointing Eve to the one thing that was forbidden her. The garden was filled with luscious, desirable fruits, but Eve focused on the one fruit she couldn't have rather than being thankful for the many good things freely available. This negative focus darkened her mind, and she succumbed to temptation.
When you focus on what you don't have or on situations that displease you, your mind also becomes darkened. You take for granted life, salvation, sunshine, flowers, and countless other gifts from Me. You look for what is wrong and refuse to enjoy life until that is 'fixed.'
When you approach Me with thanksgiving, the Light of My Presence pours onto you, transforming you through and through. Walk in the Light with Me by practicing the discipline of thanksgiving."
When you focus on what you don't have or on situations that displease you, your mind also becomes darkened. You take for granted life, salvation, sunshine, flowers, and countless other gifts from Me. You look for what is wrong and refuse to enjoy life until that is 'fixed.'
When you approach Me with thanksgiving, the Light of My Presence pours onto you, transforming you through and through. Walk in the Light with Me by practicing the discipline of thanksgiving."
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Process
"'Getting better' is a lifetime project, for we have often spent so many of our years doing the things we should have left undone, and leaving undone the things that should have been done. And, since we attract what we are, and not just what we want, it makes sense to pay attention to what we've become." - Ron Reynolds
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"- success in life is not so much about learning new skills or acquiring more knowledge, it's about recapturing some old emotions; the kind we all had when life had not yet taught us self-imposed limitations and to be content sitting inside a box of our own design. You have your own chance to change. What are you going to do? None of us have to remain how and where we are except by our own choice - or lack of choice. On any day you choose, you can begin a new journey, but to begin that bold, new journey, you must recapture the magic you once had; it's still inside of you - for now." Ron Reynolds
Monday, February 22, 2010
"Questioning Our Relevance"
I know from time to time I share these. I know they're long. But honestly it will only take you 5 minutes and this one really is worth reading. Take a minute, will you?
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One of the big questions for every one of us to ask ourselves from time to time is whether what we're doing and what we are is relevant.
Considering the people we know, work with, socialize with and associate with in other ways, and considering what goes on in our average day, is how we're spending our time and investing our skills going to have any significant impact?
On the surface, that may seem like an ambiguous and foolish question, but I think it's an important question; doesn't it make some degree of sense to want to spend our life in a way that leaves a mark in some positive way? Years ago, I bought into a philosophy that suggests that life and how we live it should be more than a birth certificate, a grave-marker, and about $1.6 million in consumed goods and services as the only evidence of our existence. And, on that grave-marker, what can be said of the "dash" between the year of our birth and the year of our death?
I have long held to the conviction that a job is a form of enslavement in which we work just hard enough to keep from getting fired and the boss pays us just enough to keep us from quitting. Now, having stated that, I realize that having a stabile source of income is necessary, but I also think we should pause on occasion to ask ourselves whether that source of income should be our only source of income, and whether the job should be accepted as a permanent condition.
For many people with a host of personal skills and virtues, a job is somewhat like putting a championship race horse in c ten-foot by ten-foot corral and leaving it there: the thoroughbred champion will, over time, lose its ability to run like the wind; it will lose its zeal to compete and to improve and advance the "gift" that it has. A set of skills and a level of ambition for using those skills will, if unused and with the passage of enough time, begin to diminish and will become eventually lost.
Now, a relevant activity for the championship thoroughbred would be to run every day so that its skills could be honed and refined. In the same manner, a human being with ambition, with imagination, with inherited and learned skills, and with the desire to become someone unique by using those virtues and gifts should seek out a place that enables him or her to increase their values by using those skills. Instead, millions of people settle for working an 8-hour, 5-day a week job where - instead of taking their skills to a new and higher level - they settle for doing their "job" as dictated by a corporate "job description sheet." True, by doing so we get our paycheck every two weeks that lets us pay our bills (or at least pay some of them), but at the risk of losing the human attributes that could have enabled us to do so much better in life, and to become so much more than the job allows us to become. Let me urge you today to take an "inventory" of your current circumstance; become more relevant by doing something that leads to a host of new freedoms and to enjoy a degree of personal and financial independence that is beyond what you may currently have. And finally, if you could do better, should you? Now there's a very relevant question the answer to which could launch you into a new orbit of achievement. Why not do something to make your "dash" highly relevant even long after you are gone?
Considering the people we know, work with, socialize with and associate with in other ways, and considering what goes on in our average day, is how we're spending our time and investing our skills going to have any significant impact?
On the surface, that may seem like an ambiguous and foolish question, but I think it's an important question; doesn't it make some degree of sense to want to spend our life in a way that leaves a mark in some positive way? Years ago, I bought into a philosophy that suggests that life and how we live it should be more than a birth certificate, a grave-marker, and about $1.6 million in consumed goods and services as the only evidence of our existence. And, on that grave-marker, what can be said of the "dash" between the year of our birth and the year of our death?
I have long held to the conviction that a job is a form of enslavement in which we work just hard enough to keep from getting fired and the boss pays us just enough to keep us from quitting. Now, having stated that, I realize that having a stabile source of income is necessary, but I also think we should pause on occasion to ask ourselves whether that source of income should be our only source of income, and whether the job should be accepted as a permanent condition.
For many people with a host of personal skills and virtues, a job is somewhat like putting a championship race horse in c ten-foot by ten-foot corral and leaving it there: the thoroughbred champion will, over time, lose its ability to run like the wind; it will lose its zeal to compete and to improve and advance the "gift" that it has. A set of skills and a level of ambition for using those skills will, if unused and with the passage of enough time, begin to diminish and will become eventually lost.
Now, a relevant activity for the championship thoroughbred would be to run every day so that its skills could be honed and refined. In the same manner, a human being with ambition, with imagination, with inherited and learned skills, and with the desire to become someone unique by using those virtues and gifts should seek out a place that enables him or her to increase their values by using those skills. Instead, millions of people settle for working an 8-hour, 5-day a week job where - instead of taking their skills to a new and higher level - they settle for doing their "job" as dictated by a corporate "job description sheet." True, by doing so we get our paycheck every two weeks that lets us pay our bills (or at least pay some of them), but at the risk of losing the human attributes that could have enabled us to do so much better in life, and to become so much more than the job allows us to become. Let me urge you today to take an "inventory" of your current circumstance; become more relevant by doing something that leads to a host of new freedoms and to enjoy a degree of personal and financial independence that is beyond what you may currently have. And finally, if you could do better, should you? Now there's a very relevant question the answer to which could launch you into a new orbit of achievement. Why not do something to make your "dash" highly relevant even long after you are gone?
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Priorities
I have recently been working through my priorities in my mind. I've been journaling a lot and thinking that I just might have a few priorities mixed up. I know for sure the things I put my time into are things I enjoy, but I am expecting to build my business into something will eventually run on it's own, earn me some "beach money," and make it so Francisco and I can be stay at home parents then I'd better figure out what I really need to be spending my time doing!
So, it's possible that my knitting will need to slow down. I am still in full swing of some projects I promised for people. I plan to finish these as soon as I can, but I am also planning on NOT spending every spare minute I have knitting. Although this is probably the most comfortable and easiest thing for me to do, I do know that will not be earning me the amount of wealth I desire.
Don't worry my few followers. There will still be knitting updates and pictures :) And you can still request things from me, but it must be said that I will be making a conscious effort to work my business more than knit. :) Over all I think this is a good thing!
I'm headed to Dallas, TX next weekend for our bi-annual success school! I'm so excited! I also have a friend coming with me for the first time! So of course this makes it double exciting! Andy Andrews AND Michael W. Smith will be there...seriously I'm like a kid before Christmas!!
So, it's possible that my knitting will need to slow down. I am still in full swing of some projects I promised for people. I plan to finish these as soon as I can, but I am also planning on NOT spending every spare minute I have knitting. Although this is probably the most comfortable and easiest thing for me to do, I do know that will not be earning me the amount of wealth I desire.
Don't worry my few followers. There will still be knitting updates and pictures :) And you can still request things from me, but it must be said that I will be making a conscious effort to work my business more than knit. :) Over all I think this is a good thing!
I'm headed to Dallas, TX next weekend for our bi-annual success school! I'm so excited! I also have a friend coming with me for the first time! So of course this makes it double exciting! Andy Andrews AND Michael W. Smith will be there...seriously I'm like a kid before Christmas!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Finished Another One

I finished another hat! I used size 8 circular and double pointed needles with the same Vanna yarn I used for my pink hat (except this one is purple ... lol obviously). I made it for Francisco's cousin! I hope she likes it!
I frogged the scarf I was making for my sister and started over. The sides were being stupid....looking stupid...well not perfect. But it's super easy to work on at work so I caught up on it today and will continue working on it at work this week and I should hopefully be 1/2 way done by the end of this week (unless she gets me some more yarn then I might be able to finish)!
Still working on a lace scarf and a scarf to match my hat. That's all for now. More knitting to do!
Actually more bed time to do.... *yawn*
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Over load
Well, I went from having just 2 knitting projects I was working on to 4 on needles and 4 waiting to be started! LOL :) I think I love it, but I'm not sure my hands do!
I'm making another big squishy hat in purple for Francisco's cousin, Sarah. :) And I'm making my sister a nice warm wide dark gray/light gray marbled color scarf. I'm also making slow progress on a lacy scarf for my wonderful friend Michelle. This one is taking me a while though because the yarn is so itty-bitty! But it's fun to watch the lacy pattern appear.
Then I will be making 2 of my other friends (from church) simple beanies. And a secret project in the works (I know she reads the blog).
Just thought I'd drop by and give you an update! Back to work!! Or ... maybe I'll walk to Freddies and spend the last of my $ on some more double pointed needles. haha I'm addicted and it's perfect for not wanting to drive until the snow turns into permanent slush.
It's been a nice vacation :)
I'm making another big squishy hat in purple for Francisco's cousin, Sarah. :) And I'm making my sister a nice warm wide dark gray/light gray marbled color scarf. I'm also making slow progress on a lacy scarf for my wonderful friend Michelle. This one is taking me a while though because the yarn is so itty-bitty! But it's fun to watch the lacy pattern appear.
Then I will be making 2 of my other friends (from church) simple beanies. And a secret project in the works (I know she reads the blog).
Just thought I'd drop by and give you an update! Back to work!! Or ... maybe I'll walk to Freddies and spend the last of my $ on some more double pointed needles. haha I'm addicted and it's perfect for not wanting to drive until the snow turns into permanent slush.
It's been a nice vacation :)
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